Possible Vindication?

A lot of things have changed for me since I have last written here, surprisingly. I have been approached by the men's epee captain and my good friend, Dane, and told that according to the powers that be in the fencing club, I have made enough noticeable progress to warrant a slight 'lift' in my travel grounding. I have been asked to lead the B squad in a trip to Georgia. Not quite the responsibility actually. It's only a small drive, and it will only be with some of the men on the team that I do not socialize with that much. Still, it was surprising to receive the message. I don't really know what to make of it at the moment. I didn't feel elated, that is certain. I just took it with a grain of salt almost. I don't feel that the team would stab me in the back, no pun intended, but I do feel that they all look at me very differently since everything that transpired over the summer has happened. I don't really know anymore. I am simply going along with it and telling them that I am happy, as they probably expect me to be, and telling them that I still might not be able to go due to real technical reasons keeping me grounded still, such as monetary problems and academic conflicts. So I am telling them the truth, just not the whole truth. They have to remember that I also look at them differently since they told me that I had become a 'liability' to the team over what happened during the end of the summer which did not even have to do with the team. They did not fully understand the commitment that I have given to this team. Many others that I know would have already left or have simply flaked away given the same circumstances. I have not. I deserve every recognition from them in that regard.